Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Astitva ki Talash

An original after very long time :)

Aaj apne ek mitr ke blog ko chante hue humen pata chala ki woh apne astitva ko leke pareshaan hai unhe darr hai ki jo woh kar rahein hain shayad unke astitv ke vipreet hai.  Padhte padhte hi humein yakeen hua ki woh apne astitv ko na khone denge kabhi or hum dua karte hai ki woh apna hisse ki kathnaiyan aaram se sehan karke aagey bad sakenge.Par yaka yak yeh sawal humein bhi satane laga ki humara astitva kya hai ?? kabhi tha ya nahin?? kahan kho gaya hai??
to humne socha astitva hi nahin hum kafi kuch kho chuke hain inn dino mein or inn pankiton mein apni talash ko peerone ki koshish ki hai, ummed hai pasand aayegi

PS. Writting after very long time so have lost touch but sure of getting it back soon.


Mera astitva kho gaya hai kahin sath tere
isliye tujhe dhoodne ke pehle khud ko dhoondta hun main ab

Woh hasi woh khushi jo chali gayi hai sath tere..
tera sath dhoodne se pehle woh apni muskaan dhoondta hun main ab

Mera ek kareebi dost bhi shayad gumshuda hai sath tere
woh dost dhoonde se pehle khud ko dhoondta hun main ab

Ek majboot kandhe ka sahara bhi gaya hai sath tere
woh sahara dhoondne se pehle apna bhari mann dhundta hun main ab


Phoolon se sajaye sapne bhi naraaz hai mujhse sath tere
woh sapne dhoondne se pehle aankhon mein neend dhoondta hun main ab

Jisse kabhi pyar kehta tha main, achal mein hi reh gaya sath tere
Pyar dhoondne se pehle woh rakth shodhak dil dhoondta hun main ab

Tere pallu mein lipat ke roya karta tha jo woh pal chala gaya hai sath tere
woh pallu se pehle apne dard ka ehsaas dhoondta hun mai ab

Teri jhulfon ki mahak jo mehkaya karti thi kabhi lapata hai sath tere
woh mehak dhoondne se pehle saorabh shakti dhoondta hun main ab

Tu kal tha aaj nahin hain kal bhi shayad na ho
par iss sab ke beech jeene ke mayne dhoondta hun main ab

Tera sath tere shabdo ke roop mein sath hai mere 
par insab se pehle apni chetnya dhoondta hun mein ab

Woh mera jeevan jo tujhsa ho gaya tha chal diya hai sath tere
jeevan dhondne se pehle jeene ki chah dhoondta hun main ab

Maut aa jaye na kahin mere kareeb tujhse pehle,issi darr se jeene ki raah dhoodnta hun main ab.

Mera astitva kho gaya hai kahin sath tere
isliye tujhe dhoodne ke pehle khud ko dhoondta hun main ab

8 comments:

Tanya said...

hey .... it's really nice... don't think u have ur lost ur poetic senses ... instead i guess ur poems have come out 2 b only better with time :)

cooldivay said...

hey Tanya thanks for your appreciating words. even when they have come after my continuous requesting of putting a comment on my poem :)
but after all appreciation kaise bhi aaye kisse buri lagti hai :P

Anonymous said...

hey...
this is ur first piece fo writing i read n must say its a gud one..
though it was a bit difficult to read this much in hindi..(which i am ashamed of)but hats off....
gud one :)

cooldivay said...

Thanks Uttara..
As m not that good in English as you are so have to take help of my mother tongue.. :P

Thanks for your appreciation. loved your comment.

Mansi Saini said...

It's been so long that I have heard or read you.. So even I have lost touch with such typical Hindi..

Lekin jitna samajh aaya.. uski ab tareef karun ya....... i dunno!

cooldivay said...

Thanks Mansi

Thanks for leaving comment.. even I dunno what else to say!!!!!!!!!

MJ said...

I wont say it is very nice.. becoz i know what state one needs to be in, to write something like that.
Only i can hope and pray ki u find whatever u r searching, whatever u deserve.
Waise panktiyaan bahut hi sunder hai ...
tu to sach main shayar hai ... theek thaak likh hi leta hai :P

cooldivay said...

Thanks a Lot Monika :)

Thanks for your words, support and care that you have always shown to me :).....

chalo will wait kab yeh theek thak se achi lagne lage tumhe :P